*O.o*//:
I cant write for long because I have to go get stuff done but yes....mood swings....arnt they fun?? i dont feel alone anymore. I just feel....semi-normal, I suppose. But my horoscope for today seems semi accurate...

Virgo
You shouldn't try to fight the feelings that run trough you today! Don't even try to rationalize them! These feelings are probably related to emotions dating back to your childhood. You shouldn't try to avoid them and don't even think about analyzing them. There will be a lot of turmoil welling up within you, dear Virgo. You should therefore try to find some peace and quiet in the arms of someone...

so i think i will refrain from thinking too much today.....id like to find some peace and quiet in the arms of someone....but i dont have anyone at the moment....
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] tired....i just woke up...
& thats all --> jessy @ Friday, June 13, 2003 @ 11:50 a.m.

hmm...//:
but on a slightly lighter note to the last entry....i guess it further proves that loneliness is one of those existential need things we learned about in world religeons.
& current -->
[ music ] still nothing
[ mood ] still lonely
& thats all --> jessy @ Friday, June 13, 2003 @ 12:48 a.m.

loneliness//:
i hate the feeling of loneliness. but thats what i feel, and i hate it. I feel alone, like theres very little people in this world that really care about me and love me for me. i feel like i dont fit in anywhere, like everyone else has a place and somewhere to be, someplace to go in which theyre not alone...
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] lonely
& thats all --> jessy @ Friday, June 13, 2003 @ 12:43 a.m.

hmm...//:
so, I think I might just have solved my hosting problems....I hope ^__^ now, I just have to wait a lil bit till I get an e-mail from the distant host people and all will be good....I really hope. Anyway, I finished listening to Derek's CD. There are a few really good songs on there, but you know, Ive decided that I have full reason to wonder about you sometimes derek..............yeah............and who is track 12 about??? huh???? what girl is this that you are singing about??? oh my, am I taking the role of the jealous girlfriend?? -_-v and track 13 is just..............strange........
& current -->
[ music ] track 13 // dereks cd
[ mood ] ........freezing cold....why is my house so cold??
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 12, 2003 @ 07:27 p.m.

yay//:
today has been a good day. The weathers really nice too....its reminds me of fall in new jersey....just alot hotter as this is florida. I got Derek's pre demo CD in the mail today and its really really good so far. But, whats up with the "to jessy from derek"??? i dont even get a "love derek"???? well then. atleast it says something as opposed to nothing, i suppose....anyway, did you know that gas is 20 cents more expensive in Boca than in Boynton??? I know this because I had to get gas in Boca yesterday when coming home from school. If I didnt, I wouldnt have made it home. So, that would have been a bad thing. Well, Im starving as all Ive eaten so far today is a piece of gum. I need real food or I will faint. I also need to take some medicine or something....Im all stuffy and I cant hear that well, or breathe.
& current -->
[ music ] the Jessy does crack song (i forgot the real title....but I dont do crack....its a long story...) // Space Man Spiff (Dereks band)
[ mood ] stuffy and hungry
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 12, 2003 @ 05:23 p.m.

^__^//:
meh...I have a cold and dont feel well. Ive been taking vitamins and drinking orange juice like crazy but it hasnt helped too much. I think that could be whats been making me so quiet and in a sort-of bad mood lately...that and pms >.< its wonderful being a girl isn't it?? So, my struggle to find good (cheap...very cheap) hosting continues and so far, Ive been turned down by two free hosting sites in which you have to send in an application for. Meanies. Oh well, but on a much better note, I have been forgiven for the misunderstanding I caused and am incredibly happy for that ^___^ (and I still feel awfull for causing it) But I thank you and your friend again for accepting my apology. But, I must now retire to my bed and sleep as I have summer school again tommorow. So boring. That class (world religeons), although we cover interesting topics, is *so* incredibly boring. 4 hours of it a day is way too much...*way* too much.....and so I end this entry here, goodnight all...
& current -->
[ music ] sweet dreams // those people...you know, the ones that sing??
[ mood ] tired...happy...tired...
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 12, 2003 @ 02:48 a.m.

...//:
I also took the advice on font size and such. I hope its better now...
& current -->
[ music ] stoned // smash mouth
[ mood ] i still feel really bad
& thats all --> jessy @ Wednesday, June 11, 2003 @ 07:28 p.m.

apology//:
I just got an email from someone that Im quite glad I recieved. It made me realize some things. I may have hurt a few people with my Jacon comments. Im incredibly sorry. There was a misunderstanding. "Stalker Boy" was just a bad joke about someone else. Im so so sorry. I wont go into detail as I dont want it all posted here, but please know that Im really sorry.
& current -->
[ music ] smash mouth // i just wanna see
[ mood ] .......i feel really bad *>.<*
& thats all --> jessy @ Wednesday, June 11, 2003 @ 07:13 p.m.

.....//:
well....im home from summer school....still havent slept.......im really hungry actually....and everyone should join the church of bowling. im the king pin yo.
& current -->
[ music ] cutie // ?? (song from Digi Charot)
[ mood ] eh
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 05:30 p.m.

woosh//:
okay...so its 7:30 and i still havent slept yet.....nope...and i decided that im not. and i even documented my not sleeping on film....yes. I was incredibly bored last night around 5 or so in the morning so I started filming random things. Like my dog sleeping. Or my wall. All in nightshot. It was fun....sort of.......................sooner or later im gonna get off this chair and go take a shower. Im all sweaty from playing dance dance revolution for an hour or so....that was fun too *nods* yep yep....k im out....
& current -->
[ music ] if only // hanson
[ mood ] sweaty and worn out from too much ddr >.< yet, not tired (sleepy) at all..........hen desu yo.........
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 07:30 a.m.

=^.^=//:
well now....its 3:10 in the morning and I have to get up around 9 or 10 to go to summer school. blah. world religeons. this will be such a boring class....but hey, now i get two free periods second semester next year ^.^ spiffness....but i should go to bed now. alright...im going to bed now.......and i apologize for the stupidity written on here earlier tonight. I was talking to laura on the phone. Its all her fault. speaking of stupidity:
"Hello captain random--so what's in *your* pants tonight?" --laura
"My pants? Do you *really* want to know?" --jessy
yes, stupidity. It doesnt sound so wrong (and stupid) if you heard the rest of the conversation. But, yeah, this is definently going in the quote book yo. For sch-nizzle. (did I actually just write that? heh--guess i did....) AND NOW....*dun dun dun* i am off TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha.....
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] insane
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 03:09 a.m.

nehe//:
I AM THE SUPER CLOSET GAZELLE!!!!!!!!!! ~inspired by the queen gazelle laura ("yum")
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] dandy
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 01:08 a.m.

yeah//:
its always good to not be the spawn of satan
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] dandy
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 01:06 a.m.

HAHAHAHAHAHA//:
laura is retarded!!!!!!!! she needs more tissues!!!!!!!
& current -->
[ music ] nada
[ mood ] hmmm......
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 12:57 a.m.

hehehehe...//:
yay for laura!!!! laura has had a major breakthrough!!!! no more shallow-ness!!!! yay!!!!
& current -->
[ music ] does talking on the phone to laura count???
[ mood ] meh....
& thats all --> jessy @ Monday, June 9, 2003 @ 12:37 a.m.

swish :: ooo//:
um...anyway....i woke up today around 4:20 pm i believe. It was so nice to sleep the whole day...plus, it was rainy so i felt like being all cuddled up under a blanket =^.^= i think dereks in camp now because i havent heard from him today. last night he said hed call me later but oh well...he didnt....or maybe i slept through the phone ringing...meh...whatever. i should be getting his pre-demo cd in the mail some time later this week....^.^ oooo hey i was told that i was beautiful today...some one from cosplaylab.com sent me a message reading "you are so beautiful" or something close to that. i feel special ^__^ and pretty ^____^ hehe, well, im off to go take a shower and get ready for summer school tommorow >.< im taking world religeons so that i dont have to take it next year. Instead, im just gonna have two free periods in my second semester...hey, its senior year. Im gonna need to take it easy ^__~ and on that note, i now have 2 colleges in mind that i know i will apply to...yay!! (scad and ringling, if your wondering....)
& current -->
[ music ] cant get enough of you baby // smash mouth
[ mood ] bored...happy...pretty *^.^*
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, June 8, 2003 @ 09:24 p.m.

- - - - - - - - -//:
wah....im bored and sadly, its 12:21 or something and im not tired at all...and how much did i sleep (this afternoon)...like two hours??? go to sleep jessy....go to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* i dont want to go to sleep...i would be able to get so much more accomplished if I didnt have to sleep all the time. And i hate doing stuff during the day. I find the night to be the best time to get things done. yes yes. and the early morning the best time to sleep. I dont know, its just so much nicer that way...
by the way, derek, why do you keep on signing off aim without saying bye to me???? why?????????? huh??????????? eh....okay, i think im gonna go get ready for bed now.....
& current -->
[ music ] the lovely sounds o' the air conditioner running
[ mood ] bored
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, June 8, 2003 @ 12:20 a.m.

hehe//:
this is what happens when you clash
here is some good pot
did i tell you that you look perfeect (spelling intentionally wrong) today? (and smell too?)
oh yes, and thank you for you
(sorry....i am very bored...all images are from engrish.com a wicked funny site....i suggest you visit....yes yes i do....
& current -->
[ music ] nada
[ mood ] bored............
& thats all --> jessy @ Saturday, June 7, 2003 @ 06:23 p.m.

oh yeah...//:
and on a lighter note....i just randomly felt like throwing this in....roschina antiqua ferrera, that lil thing that (currently) says "& no comments-->add?" right above the tag-board, that was added for you so that you can tell me all about you lil adventures with kenny and all the "YISSSSS"-ing that goes on without taking over the tag-board........of course, anyone else's comments are highly welcomed as well.....yissum ^___^
~johanna jemhina jemima
& current -->
[ music ] none....birds chirping outside...thats a good thing....it means its morning...!
[ mood ] bored, freaked out, happy that the sun is finally coming up *^__^* la-la-la....
& thats all --> jessy @ Saturday, June 7, 2003 @ 06:04 a.m.

mehehe~//:
yes...well...its almost 6 am and i havent slept yet...AT ALL....you see, i tried, but it didnt work at all. I think i just laid in my bed for two hours (i didnt actually start an attempt untill 2:30 or 3:00 am or something like that) and realized i wasnt even tired. ive been oversleeping way too much lately, and here is the result. Im also way too creeped out by a dream I had yesterday night to go to sleep. It was seriously an incredibly freaky dream. Ive never been bothered by a dream ive had before (and ive had many fucked up dreams before) but none have been this fucked up or scary before. But, the wierd part is, I know ive had some toned down version of this dream once or twice before. But, this time I actually remembered my dream (this is something that rarely happens, and when I do remember my dreams, I'll end up remembering if i had them before or not *while* im still dreaming....its weird, i know....) and it was incredibly real and the worst part is that there are so many things that are recognizable in my life that were in my dream. Lets see.....well, there was me, for one thing...my mom, my house, my mom's room, my mom's bathroom, the stairs of my house, my car keys, my mom's car, the outside of my house, derek's garage (kind of randomly thrown in there, but it *was* derek's garage....), my aunt's house, the kitchen/eating area place...yeah...of my old house, my friend....... but it was so scary, especially because i knew all of what was happening while it was happening in my dream. I knew when the guy was watching me, i knew when the guy was going to chase me and this other girl i was with, i knew exactly where he was and everything.....it was so freaky. But, i left out all of the scarier details because im scaring myself again just by typing this. And the worst part was, there was alot of mirror symbolism or something happening.........very freaky. I never did much find mirrors to be the most comforting of objects..........theyre too...strange...i dunno. And whats scary again is that i have a mirror right behind me on the wall opposite me.....ack....well....yeah, i had to write that down *somewhere*.........besides, im bored out of my mind and have nothing better to be doing....i mean, i could go downstairs....but then theres that whole window, guy watching me, reflective surface cause its dark outside thing from my dream. Yeah, dont really wanna go downstairs. And i dont really wanna put on any music or watch tv because its all quiet in my house. and the noise would probably freak me out....not that the silence isnt already. So, yeah....im off to do nothing for the next few hours. Adios~ i hope derek calls me tommorow before he leaves for camp....
& current -->
[ music ] -none-
[ mood ] bored and *incredibly* freaked out
& thats all --> jessy @ Saturday, June 7, 2003 @ 05:48 a.m.

*woot*//:
hey look everyone!!!!! daniel signed my tag-board *finally* and to prove it, here is a repeat of his message...messages:

Daniel/Takuya: OK, that's all folks.

Daniel/Takuya: But I'm too clever

Daniel/Takuya: for the system

Daniel/Takuya: Everything I say goes up here in reverse order.

Daniel/Takuya: (Who went to Japanese camp with Jessy last summer.)

Daniel/Takuya: Hi everyone! I'm Some Guy From Minnesota.

Daniel/Takuya: Hmm...this is weird. Uh, I mean...Jessy rocks!

and your so right about that whole "Jessy rocks!" thing....*puts away sword* and you get your country back too, by the way....
& current -->
[ music ] air conditioning!!!!!
[ mood ] happy/tired////oh, and i feel pretty today too ^__^
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 5, 2003 @ 11:59 p.m.

haha//:
here is an interesting quote from yoshitaka-sensei:
"I'm the 2-week curriculum coordinator, which means I won't be sleeping with the kids this year. My friends tell me that's a positive change. I think maybe they misunderstood me."
hahahaha....however, only few people would find that as funny as i do....
& current -->
[ music ] does the sound of my air conditioning running count? i think it does
[ mood ] same as previous entry
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 5, 2003 @ 11:49 p.m.

ooo interesting day....//:
so i woke up around 2 or something, took a shower, ate dinner, and here i find myself now....what an eventfull day....yeah.....i was also told i was beautiful/pretty today a total of 4 or 5 times ^__^....im most fond of Derek's response to hearing that someone else thought i was pretty tho =^.^= but, hey, even daniel told me i was pretty!!
Dorrin84 (11:21:06 PM): Um...truce! Truce! And I love you and you're beautiful and all that good stuff.
this of course, was the response he gave after i pulled out a sword and threatened his life with it....*mumbles*...over AIM....yah....ph34r the sword daniel....and hey, you never signed my tag-board!!!!!! fine!!!!! im eliminating one of your future countries!!!!!! true dat. and i win and you lose. even with the truce. hahaha!!!!
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] eh...tired...happy...tired....happy =^.^= pretty?
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 5, 2003 @ 11:08 p.m.

con pics ^___^//:
here we go, actual images as opposed to links to sites:

x jessy1.jpg - me ^__^ and i actually look half decent...
x jessy2.jpg - me again, but i look worse in this one >.<
x erika1.jpg - a picture of erika in her costume
x chad1.jpg - "char lie" as the great saiya man
x all1.gif - all three of us
x all2.jpg - ignore the strange poses please...
x j2003-1549.jpg - weird file name...anyway, a picture of my friend val in her spiffin furry costume
x trans.jpg - this costume is so awesome...amazing....its the transformer. supposively it took this girl 6 months to make her costume, which is quite believable as its complete with lights and sounds...

well, thats all for now........you can also check out my costumes at my cosplaylab account thang....go here ^__^
& current -->
[ music ] destiny // BoA
[ mood ] fine and dandy
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 5, 2003 @ 01:56 a.m.

more jacon pics!!! ^__^//:
go here for lots of pics: http://www.risingsun.net/gallery/jacon2003/index.shtml
& current -->
[ music ] none
[ mood ] tired
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, June 5, 2003 @ 12:07 a.m.

JACON PICTURES//:
i found some JACON 2003 pictures:
http://www.cosplaylab.com/jacon2003/ - there are only about six pictures here, none of me but there is one of that girls spiffin transformer outfit. by the way, i decided that i have to see trasformers.
wasabi anime pictures - theres none here of me either but ill find somewhere eventually...
most other sites ive checked dont have any pics up but im sure they will soon...ill add them as they do...not to mention swiping some pictures of me to add to the site ^__~ alright, im off to sleep
& current -->
[ music ] 99 red balloons // nena
[ mood ] AHHH DEAD FRICKIN TIRED
& thats all --> jessy @ Wednesday, June 4, 2003 @ 03:05 a.m.

not asleep yet...//:
i reached 100 visitors...just thought i should mention that. oh yeah, and my other me is named johanna hemhina jemima...yes...
& current -->
[ music ] video killed the radio stars // some people sang this song, did you know?
[ mood ] still tired
& thats all --> jessy @ Wednesday, June 4, 2003 @ 03:01 a.m.

mah......//:
woo so much has happened since my last entry...lessee....starting with JACON, shall we??

jacon:
ive already told most people i talk to about jacon, but hell, why not write it one more time for those who forgot or who i just didnt mention anything to? here goes

FRIDAY : not much happened, drove up,left late, got there, changed into my dark chii/fureya outfit which rocked...it was *so* much fun to wear........lessee, i had black shoes, black knee socks, and a black and hot pink plaid pleated skirt, a tiny black spagetti strap shirt which showed my belly button off, and black arm warmers with hot pink ribbon at the top, along with my chii ears, of course :P i got my picture taken by a bunch of people and took a bunch or pictures....anyway, after the convention, we headed over to the host hotel and watched some strongbad (strongbad hour) "come back ally...come back ally's sister!!!!" *ahem* anyway, chad you are so being strongbad for a convention one time, and i am so stalking you with a camera next time i go over your house so i can get your trigun donought (cant spell hehe) impression yah....anyway, moving on...and the cool lady let me into the ecchi room even though i told her i was only 16 boo yah to you hehe EBICHU!!!!!! you rock my socks, you kawaii lil housekeeping hamster....hehe...we prob got back to the room around 3:30 am....
DAY TWO: SAT - ahhh SATs I HATE you SATs!!!!!!! oh, by the way, i got my SAT scores the other day...i got a 1130 or something like that. im pretty happy *^_~* alrighty, um, i spent way too much but bought some pocky and ramune soda....which are the greatest food/drink/edible substances IN THE WORLD....i also met space ghost (or the voice of) and he signed my con badge and i got a picture with him...coolness and it actually came out really good ^__~ and not much more happened, i was in the costume contest didnt win but i knew full well i wasnt going to....hell, i didnt even make any part of my costume...i even bought the frickin ears :-P but, moving on....ooo spike (or the guy that was dressed as spike on fri and was out of costume on sat) came up to me and asekd to take a picture with me...so was like sure, whatever....it wasnt till after i realized it was the guy who was dressed as spike the day before >.< heh, whatever...later we went to char lie's (yes the space is intentional) friends house and watched ai your aoshi it was cute but the main character aoi is a crybaby and incredibly weak in personality and is really annoying....i wanted to smack her...but, yeah, i like it nonetheless....it was cute....during the night we went back to the host hotel for the cyberia dance thingy and i proved once again just how much i suck at raving >.< derek you have to teach me how to rave pleasies you said you would so now im holding you to it ^___^ i also gained a freaky stalker guy AGAIN....WHAT IS IT ABOUT ME THAT CAUSES ME TO ATTRACT FREAKY GUYS WHEREVER I GO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! (according to laura its my smell....gee thats just wonderful) yeah, but i was able to escape him eventually...and by that, i mean, by leaving the host hotel and going back to ours. i also got BRETT WEAVER TO SIGN MY ARM woo yah baby!!!!!! and my con badge he rocked. he wrote "hey pretty girl!!! carrot. brett weaver" to be exact...its still on my arm as it was written in permanent marker but carrot is one of my favorite anime characters EVER so to get his english VA to sign my arm just plain frickin rocked...but, yeah...we watched more strongbad before we went back and prob went to sleep around 3 in the morning or something....
SUNDAY THE THIRD DAY!!!! :: i love how these day titly things keep changin format but I DONT CARE cause its 2:30 in the morning ahhhh anyway, not much happened we were all complete zombies and just watched some anime and left. i wanted to stay for the cosplay contest and the closing ceremonies but the rest of my party didnt so i was fine with that ^__~ i was really tired anyway...i got home and my mommy took me and my brother out for japanese food. i had katsu chicken that food rocks. im sorry, but after watching all that awesome looking japanese food in anime, i *really* wanted some!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and for the most part, that was the convention. if i forgot something, ill post it later.

but, besides the con, what else has happened? um...we found a kitten. well, wait, lemme refrase that. me & my mom went to sally's beauty supply store or whatever the hell its called in which i bought hot pink hair dye...this ill get to later....but yeah, my mom saw a kitten in the parking lots and being the poor animal helpy person she is, she decided to go and try and catch it. as i pulled the car around....the stupid cat ran up into the car motor. yes. it realyl did. while the car was on....yes, so then a police officer came over and helped us get it out and he ended up getting bitten. so now the kitty is at animal control in quarentine (sp?) so they can find out if it has rabies. then we can either take it back or theyll put it up for adoption. i dont know if my mom wants another cat, and i could really care less...i know that sounds mean but i mean, it was a cool lil cat with a really scary attacking attitude that i found amusing but i mean, if we dont give it a good home, some one else will. and i t might be better off in a house without 5 other cats and 2 other dogs (and not to mention 2 other birds and a fish....) yeah, but moving on....i decided last night that i need to buy a new diary cause all mine are filled and havent been written in since 9th grade...prob because all the shit that happened to me last year would have been to hard to write down. i would have broken down while writing it so its prob better that i didnt. i could write it now, so i will. maybe. and, moving on........
today, i attempted to streak my hair hott pink. but now i jsut have pink highlights. i think it looks kinda cool so im happy with it. the colors suppose to fade in like 6 weeks or something so hopefully the color will be gone by the time school starts so that i will be allowed in...yah...im debating whether or not to just dye the whole thing but ill see....
in other news, i started my first AMV (anime music video) ever. it has clips from sorcerer hunters and the music is cant get enough of you baby by smash mouth hehe i think its funny so far...and im hoping to enter it into an anime convention AMV thingy...yah....im not making much sense anymore cause its almost 3 in the morning...wa....must go to sleep soon...but otherwise, not much has happened...chris started that poem for me which so far is amazing you so rock at writing stuffs....yes...and,um...i talked to derek yesterday...or was it the day before??? ack all the days have run together........i also talked to laura whenever it was i talked to derek....yes.....i need to call erika speaking of talking on the phone.....oh yea, and my cell phone service isnt working at the moment, i dunno why tho. whatever. tommorow my mommy said we can go to the asian market......you know what this means??? MORE POCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and im really hoping that theyll have ramune soda. if they do ill be in heaven. that is the best stuff in the world. worth all 2 dollars. ^__^ well, im off to sleep now....bye bye all....
& current -->
[ music ] still // rufio
[ mood ] tired
& thats all --> jessy @ Wednesday, June 4, 2003 @ 02:08 a.m.

dum de dum//:
jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon jacon okay, enough of that....erika and her brother are picking me up in like...30 minutes....this will be so much fun hehehehe then its about a three hour drive to orlando and then i get to have much fun at jacon....and get to attempt to get some raving skills at the dance party from those wishing to help a pathetically horrible raver.......*>_<* oh well heh....oh yeah, i fixed some more stuff under the quiz results section......i might have added some more results, i dunno....well, im off *^__^* see you all sunday *^__~*
& current -->
[ music ] i am (from inuyasha) // hitomi
[ mood ] just peachy....wait, who said that to me yesterday?? oh yeah, it was chris haha now i remember....i think im gonna go burn a cd now....
& thats all --> jessy @ Friday, May 30, 2003 @ 12:56 p.m.

::yawn:: and ::yay:: (kay, that was cheezy...)//:
jacon (anime convention) is TOMMOROW...wait, scratch that....TODAY...we'll be leaving in about 10 hours or so...and be returning in...60 hours or so....and i prob wont sleep the whole time, hell, i havent even packed anything yet....and the frickin website why wont you work???? (speaking of which, i made minor updates, got rid of some stuff, and added a link for all the results ive gotten from the quizess ive taken) but its gonna be so much fun ^__^ theres more people going this time, instead of just me and erika, its me, erika, her bother, and andrea? (i dont know if shes going or not) but then there will be val and her lil brothers which well prob end up seeing there and maybe a few people i met at the last one way back in october...or november...or december...or whenever it was....yah....(hey, should i wear my kitty girl outfit on one of the days???? hmmm....) just as long as we dont run into the harry potter kid or the scary stalker guy that kept following me around calling me a "sexy bunny" i was a kitty damn it!!!! if you called me "sexy kitty" you would have still freaked me out immensly, i just wouldnt have gotten annoyed at the fact that you kept calling me a bunny. weirdo hentai dude. i bet you anything he went to watch hentai during the rave party thing......yeah............but my costume is spiffin. i love my skirt. and i get to wear my black knee socks again ^__^ (or my wanna-be boots heh....lots of people thought i was wearing boots from far away the day i wore those socks and my skirt to school...) but yes, im not really sure what i am. Im a weird version of dark chii...but i bet ill end up taking the ears off eventually and just being a dark japanese school girl?? eh...whatever...but this is gonna be so much fun....and its the first time my mommy is letting me drive far away without her or any other chaperoning party....spiffness...i mean, were not gonna do anything bad...its a freaking anime convention *^___^* you go for the anime, not the freedom (laura....is this even comprehendable to you? haha) yay....this will be much fun this weekend. i get to run around and be the anime dork that i am :-P derek you were suppose to go to but *no* you had to go to NC.........just imagine all the fun im going to have to have without you now...well, i think im going to go pack...or eat food...or go to sleep...or something now...mata ne minna....*^____^*
& current -->
[ music ] pretty sammy theme [TECHNO REMIX] japanese // from tenchi muyo/pretty sammy ....i miss watching tenchi....i think ill have a "jessys gonna be lazy again and watch the entire 13 episode series of tenchi muyo! ryo-ohki" marathon sometime next week...along with my "jessys still gonna be lazy and rent kingdom hearts from blockbuster and finally finish the game in one sitting"...ive made it to halloween town...then i had to return the game as i had it out for like 3 months (hey, during school i cant play that often) and was racking up massive late fees ^ ^;;; so i took it back...now, i just have to finish the game....
[ mood ] genki yo ^__^
& thats all --> jessy @ Friday, May 30, 2003 @ 01:20 a.m.

&YD(&*DS*&Y....anger//:
grrrrrrrr this site is making me so frusterated....or however thats spelled....yeah, im trying to put a new layout up but i want to kill my free host causes nothing works~~~~~~~~~ grrrr wish i had more money.....wish i could buy hosting........but 0 a year??? i just dont have that, sorry...............well, i do.......but, i kinda need that 100 for my car...yes, yes...i get money every month for gas and to save up if my car ever needs fixing...speaking of which, i need to take it to the jeep dealership to get it serviced....anyway, yeah......grrrrrrrr layout=so incredibly annoying............maybe ill work on it after this weeked......
& current -->
[ music ] destiny // BoA
[ mood ] gah....
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, May 29, 2003 @ 11:58 p.m.

yay...sort of...//:
so the hosting problems are all fixed now...but, as i try to make a whole new layout using this picture (complete with iframes and all) ...my host keeps screwing up the pages. damn the free hosts. no, wait, dont do that because then i would be hostless again....
& current -->
[ music ] otanjyobi o toyobi (call me princess) // ayeka (from tenchi muyo)
[ mood ] annoyed...
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, May 29, 2003 @ 04:56 p.m.

ACK//:
if the images arnt working on this page, its because i lost my host and am in the process of fixing everything...things should be better by tonight or tommorow!!!!
& current -->
[ music ] Miraiseiki Maruhi Club // kyoko (boogiepop phantom)
[ mood ] tired
& thats all --> jessy @ Thursday, May 29, 2003 @ 02:18 p.m.

ahem//:
and daniel please refrain from the dirty your mom jokes!!!! just kidding :-P
& current -->
[ music ] radio player // allister
[ mood ] haha i am now less bored
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 11:25 p.m.

hehe//:
yay! daniel/takuya/commander of the ducks and lesser waterfoul said hed visit my site again and write in my tagboard yay!!!!! and im holding you to it, just to let you know. If you dont sign my tagboard, i take back New Zealand, and maybe even part of that odd named country i said you could have.....yes.....^___^
~yume =^.^=
& current -->
[ music ] kurenai // x-japan
[ mood ] genki yo and suddenly typing in lots of nipon-ese (japanglish wa honto ni ii!!!!!) hehe mori no ike memories....
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 11:16 p.m.

oh yeah//:
theres also a bunch of new fanlisting in the joined section....i think i mentioned that before but im saying it again even if i did....yeah....see, theres fanlistings like this

or this

or, this one is one of my favorites...

hahahaha now go slave monkey and check out all the joined thingys in the navi....go!!!! (and by the way, the slave monkey thing is a joke between me and my brother so dont worry if i sound like im on something......laura should get it, i think i let her hear the message we recorded on the machine heh, i think ill do that again....the amount of people that hung up after calling us was incredibly funny....)
& current -->
[ music ] still // rufio
[ mood ] fine....still bored....insanely bored....immensly bored....and sill not studying
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 10:43 p.m.

............//:
i just realized how often i use ........ in my sentences i like using ........ in my sentences, it shows my thought pauses.....or something like that......yes...........................and i think that the song Koi Wa C'est Si Bon (which i am currently listening to) has to be one of the happiest songs i have ever heard. its just so happy....
& current -->
[ music ] Koi Wa C'est Si Bon // yuko sasaki
[ mood ] peppy? bored out of my mind? either of them work....ooo a good song just came on haha its that spiffin song from Boogiepop Phantom...whatever its called....Miraiseiki Maruhi Club....by Kyoto....haha yep....
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 10:38 p.m.

hahahaha//:
ooo i forgot to add the whole music/mood thing to the last entry....i think i was too busy laughing and not studying.....anyway, i think im gonna add a section just for quiz results because quiz results are funny and i have a whole bunch more i just dont want to take over everything with them hehe....well....im off to stare blankly at my notebook and pretend im studying....as ive been doing for the past six or so hours......im so good....
& current -->
[ music ] every heart (jp version...InuYasha 4th ending i think....) // BoA
[ mood ] my back hurts actually....wait, bloody hell thats not even a mood and ive been watching the harry potter movies way to much......only ron says bloody hell and i think it has to be my favorite line whenever he says it...wait, that would make it lines...whatever....im leaving...bye all....even though theres no one here but myself really to read this stuff....im such a loser...haha...but atleast i entertain myself........yes.....
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 10:15 p.m.

hahahahahahahaha//:
hahahaha quiz results:


Bondage movie! You're into BSDM (Bondage &
Discipline, Dominance & Submission) and chances
are, you're fond of whips, chains, harnesses,
and tight leather outfits. You like to mix a
little pain with a LOT of pleasure, baby!

What kind of porno would you star in?
brought to you by Quizilla

dunno about the whole whips, chains, harnesses thing (unless im not the one in them hahaha) but i find nothing wrong with tight leather outfits =^__^=


You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!

What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! i find that incredibly funny.......for reasons that we'll not get into hahahahaha laura, i should think that you would find these results incredibly funny too...you should take the quizess....i bet youll get the exact opposite haha
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 10:01 p.m.

*insert some sort of title here*//:
ahhh im sooooooooooo incredibly freezing cold....i have a sweatshirt and knee socks on and im *still* freezing ...and my knee socks are my cool striped ones hehe ^__^ i need to go study but yeah....im just procrastinating besides its english...doc...he practically gave away everything we needed to know in review today....yes....i need to call arielle cause i want to go to the museum on thursday....and i also want to know if shes gonna be around this summer. perhaps we can work on one of those "mocumentaries" that we proposed to do....and now i can actually capture the footage and edit it on my pc cause it decided to work after i ressurrected (my spelling sucks) it the other day....and laura, have you ever even visited my site yet??? i doubt that you have. the indian will bite you now...after he comes into your house through your open blinds....weirdo....yes....must go study....
hehe, and for my amusement, here is a random quote (which was recently added to the quote book): "cause i'd be afraid of nicking something important off and then i'd be like, 'oh crap'" -jessy ....is it spelled nicking or knicking or something? i have no clue i never could spell anyway.....
& current -->
[ music ] sweet dream // eurythmics
[ mood ] really really incredibly freezing cold cause its rainy and freaking ice cold in my house
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 08:00 p.m.

lalala//:
know what i hate? when i get out of the shower and i look like a scary racoon person because all my make up ran under my eyes....yes....anyway, i joined more fan listings.....and, ive decided how im going to change this site a lil after i start paying for hosting heh but that wont be till i get a bank account, which wont be till june or something so yah.......anyway....i have a thing in my eye and i think i shall go get rid of it.........
& current -->
[ music ] video killed the radio star // the buggles
[ mood ] annoyed....as i have a thing in my eye...it causes PAIN
& thats all --> jessy @ Tuesday, May 27, 2003 @ 07:01 p.m.

boo yah//:
i made it home from dereks house at 11:01 after leaving at 10:45 boo yah to me haha now my mommy can never tell me again that speeding doesnt get you anywhere any faster than driving normal (its some weird notion she has in her head) cause i made it home in 16 minutes ^__^ ooo but on my way home, some weirdo guy gave me the "birdy" sign (as laura would oh-so-interestingly put it...and for those who dont know it means he gave me the middle finger...) for no reason what-so-ever....i didnt do anything at all, i didnt even pass him or anything, i was just minding my own business in my lane so i still cant quite figure what the hell was wrong with him. then later at the light, he sped up passed me ang got infront of me so i slammed on the gas and went around him and passed him, and as i did he waved to me....im still rather confused but it made me laugh for the rest of the way home i still dont get it but yah, whatever, i still made it home in 16 minutes....oh yeah, and erika i got your aim invitation to chat but i wasnt home....
& current -->
[ music ] butterfly kiss // ?? its from groove adventure rave
[ mood ] just fine and dandy ^__^
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 11:22 p.m.

yes...//:
im in a really good mood now ^__^ and laura i swear to you im not mad at you!!!!! it seriously is just all this post period-o depression haha
& current -->
[ music ] relax // frankie goes to hollywood (haha such an odd song)
[ mood ] totemo genki yo ^__^
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 06:24 p.m.

wow//:
i feel so much better now that i wrote that somewhere............& im really not mad at you laura so dont worry........and why did you just call my house and hang up? then when i called you back no one answered? were you calling your music boy again and needed to erase the last number?? what is wrong with you woman?
& current -->
[ music ] the art of losing // american hi-fi
[ mood ] sort of happy now
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 04:02 p.m.

wow//:
i feel so much better now that i wrote that somewhere....... . . . . .
& current -->
[ music ] the art of losing // american hi-fi
[ mood ] sort of happy now
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 04:02 p.m.

.........//:
so ive figured out whats wrong with me....the reason why ive been so bitchy for the last day. laura stop making such a big deal out of it because its not a big deal...please stop mentioning it and being so eager to know just stop. im not mad at you, just annoyed...your not the only reason im mad...im more mad at myself because i knew before i even said anything that you would act this way. so, its mostly my fault and now im even more angry at myself. i am freaking retarded i should have listened to myself...and now it prob wont even happen anyway because i just dont like the idea anymore, i think its because its not only my idea now. i know im fricking weird but thats the way that i am and dont really care much for changing it....
& current -->
[ music ] lovefool // the cardigans
[ mood ] angry/sad/slightly abandoned....
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 03:54 p.m.

haha//:
i feel special....laura *actually* took my advice today, for, what, the first time in 5 years of knowing you?? and it was good advice too wasnt it???? i was right!!!! (like always!!!!!!) <--you just never listen to me.... -__-vv yes, and that stupid thing to leave comments on this site (not the tag-board...a different thing) isnt working so i took it off untill i figure out how to make it work.........& laura you better have checked this site.....or i mr.plate will return from the dead to harm you............
& current -->
[ music ] miraiseiki maruhi club // kyoko (from boogiepop phantom -- one of the coolest anime songs ever)
[ mood ] tired as laura woke me up just a lil bit ago by calling me......
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 02:36 p.m.

*yawn*//:
ive added a nifty lil thing to leave comments on each of my entries here (although im not sure if its working right...to tired to care at the moment) as well as a counter....and now, im off to sleep, goodnight all.....
& current -->
[ music ] video killed the radio star // the buggles
[ mood ] tired
& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 03:02 a.m.

um...//:
yes, for some reason i am still awake......but i added two links yay.....i really want some hot chocolate....but no, i cant or ill never fall asleep.....
& current -->
[ music ] through the night // ending to outlaw star (i love this song....i would have to say it is the best anime ending song ever....EVER..!!!)
[ mood ] *......................*

& thats all --> jessy @ Sunday, May 25, 2003 @ 02:21 a.m.

O.o oh yeah...by the way...//:
heh, i forgot to mention to you derek that i used your face on my lil link banner thingy hope you dont mind ^__^ ill get rid of it if you want....
& current -->
[ music ] id do anything // simple plan
[ mood ] still spiffy....just even more tired
& thats all --> jessy @ sunday may 25, 2003 @ 01:31 a.m.

derek is my layout haha//:
so, star-fyre.net/ finally has a layout haha yay and it actually works and looks good, or so i think. i dont really care what anyone else thinks, not that theyres really anyone else that looks at my page, with the exception of like, 2 other people occationally (lets see...derek, larua, and janani...okay, so that makes three people....whatever) but i still have some things to fix but ill do that after i post this as i wait even longer to go to sleep. i was so dead tired earlier but not anymore....oh well. yes, but today was an incredibly weird day....very weird...i went from being in a normal state of happyness to really upset and depressed for no real reason at all to really happy again. strange....i almost cried today and i have no frickin clue why. it was either i was really really reall incredibly tired (which i was and thus really emotionally strange) or im upset over something, im just not letting myself know what it is. i tend to do that and i hate it. why do i hide things from myself??????? eh....stupid sub consious....or however that would be spelled there *mumbles* but then i went to working on my computer & this site and fixing my old pc and finally being able to capture video footage again....i think i just needed a break from people. yes, so if your reading this derek or laura, when you called me earlier if i sounded weird.....i was so just ignore that.....heh heh ^____^ yes, well im now off to fix stuffies........oyasumi nasasi minna......
& current -->
[ music ] sweet dreams // eurythmics (thanks laura for letting me borrow your 80s cd hehe)
[ mood ] just spiffy...a lil tired :P
& thats all --> jessy @ sunday, may 25, 2003 @ 12:48 a.m.